Mommy and John
Mommy and Brandon
John just hanging out
John hanging out with his dad
Daddy and Brandon
Brandon the thinker...
Brandon trying out a bouncy chair
Daddy and John
posted by The Synnott's at 10:33 AM
Well... I did not know how emotional you can get! John has had two episodes of crying spells. One two nights ago where i just freaked out and cried for hours and thought I was on the breaking point of postpartum and last night where I did better. I think he might be congested so we are now using a humidifier and saline drops for his nose. We are also using mylicon for gas for both boys. I think the transition to our house from the sterile environment of the NICU has really caused most of this but it still scares me that the boys can get sick! After John calmed down and finally passed out Brandon woke up and was grunting and wiggling around, mind you this was at 5:30am after his feeding so I decided to hold him for a bit and he spit up all over me! NICE!!!! I have also been peed on by John and Brian has been peed on by Brandon. I was up with Brandon who was wide awake till about 7am. Nice lack of sleep since I decided to do the 2am and 5am feedings. My mom was here to feed one while I fed the other but it is still so hard! One person.... either Brian, who ever is helping out or I will have to do two consecutive feedings and not get too much sleep through the night. I gave Brian a break and let him sleep from midnight to 7 this morning. Anyways, they have been great this morning just eating and sleeping! If you come by please keep make sure you are not sick and that babies stay home so we don't get too many germs around... they have enough with the dogs licking them
Prayer request.... rest for all of us, that John has less gas and just in general feels better and that Brandon adjusts well to his new home and does not get sick. Also that we can find good bottle to use (we are having a hard transition from the NICU bottles).
More pics soon!
posted by The Synnott's at 10:35 AM
The boys are together!!!!
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posted by The Synnott's at 9:05 AM
This year I am participating in the March of Dimes-March for Babies....
posted by The Synnott's at 8:19 PM
like a ton of bricks....
I just realized that my boys are in the NICU and not home being newborns. I don't know why it took me three weeks but it has. I don't feel like a real mom. I feel that my babies are at a baby sitters 24/7. I go up to feed them twice, change their diapers and take their temperature. The drive, the NICU and everything is just getting to me and I am sad. I just want them home and crying for me, in swings smiling, seeing their sleep patterns, and waking me up at three in the morning to do whatever they need me to do. I just feel so detached!
Don't get me wrong, the boys are doing well but I did not think they would be in the NICU for at least three weeks. Brandon most likely will be over six pounds before he gets home. He is struggling with finishing his bottles. He is on four bottle, every other feeding and seems to only finish two out of the four so they are not going to progress up to five yet. Please pray that he catches on and that he starts to finish all his bottle feeds. When he does not finish that means he has to stay in the NICU longer to learn. I just want him HOME. The neonatologist says it is just a classic case of prematurity. John is doing well... he lost a little weight but that is because he is working so hard on feeding. HE IS ON EIGHT BOTTLES!!! They took out the feeding tube and now he just has to keep up his body temperature and sustain the eight bottles and he should be home next week..... most likely without his brother. Please pray that John can keep his temperature up and sustain the eight bottles per day.
Please also pray for Brian and I to be able to handle bringing home one of our sons and not both at the same time. I know it will be amazing to bring one of them home but it will be so hard to leave one there.
posted by The Synnott's at 4:36 PM
posted by The Synnott's at 4:28 PM
I have made the very hard decision to stop breast pumping. I have been thinking about it for about a week but have felt very guilty about it because so many mothers pump or breast feed and I am weaning off after 2 weeks 4 days! Texas Women's Hospital are real advocates of breast feeding and I am scared about telling them. I do not want to be told I am a bad mom, especially to preemies and twins or have them say things that make me second guess my decision. My reasoning for stopping is this.... I personally want to enjoy my boys when the come home. We have all been through a lot, after IVF, hospital stays, being sick and the NICU.... I am tired and know that my body can not handle all this and stay sane. I have dealt with depression before and never ever want to go back there. When the twins do come home I do not want to be tied down to a pump. I want to play, watch, feed and ENJOY our boys. I know a lot of moms will disagree with me and I think that breast feeding moms are my heroes because I can see how hard it is but it is just not for me. Just making the decision has made my attitude better and now I want to get up and find a pediatrician, play in the nursery, get dressed, cook dinner and I just want my body to feel normal again. I know my life has changed and I am a mom and nothing will ever be the same BUT I am ready to be a mom and for the boys to be home and start our new life without the hassle of dealing with my breasts.... ;-)
Ok so now I am rambling....
On another note.... thank you for your prayers, they are being answered!!!!
John is up to three bottles and Brandon is up to two. Brian and I think John should be home by next week some time and hopefully Brandon will come home with him or shortly follow!
posted by The Synnott's at 4:35 PM
Brandon finished his bottle yesterday in 25 minutes... all 47 ml. of it!!!
Pray that he keeps it up.
Also, John did great with his second bottle!!
I pray they come home soon, it is starting to wear on me.
posted by The Synnott's at 9:07 AM
The boys are doing very very well!!!!!!
Brandon and John are both over 5 pounds and growing everyday. They are both up to about 47ml of milk a feeding. John has been upped to two bottles a day- about 12 hours apart (they like three feedings in between). If he takes the second bottle well they will keep increasing bottles per day. Hopefully it will not take long for him to get to 8 bottles and come home. Brandon is still on one bottle, he is being a little stinker and not being very interested in taking his full bottle- he eats about half and then falls asleep..... so cute but very frustrating.
Please continue to pray for the twins as they learn how to feed and tolerate the bottle so they can come HOME!!!!
posted by The Synnott's at 10:59 AM
Alright, I need some prayers!!!
I am sick... I don't know if I am having a bad case of allergies OR I have a cold but low and behold I don't feel good!
I feel like I can not catch a break. From getting home from the hospital I have had a fever, a numb hand, an infection and now this.... it is one thing after another and now I am not getting to see the boys everyday (I missed yesterday and today) because I don't want anyone in the NICU getting sick if I am really sick.
I just want to feel good!!! Please pray for my soreness to subsides, my allergies/cold goes away fast, the feeling in my hand comes back and that the infection goes away so I can go see the boys!
posted by The Synnott's at 10:26 AM